Why is it that I talk about my nursing job all the time with my family? When I’m not around them, I rarely mention it – and when I do I have nothing good to say about it? It’s like I remember all the little details and stories about my job when I’m talking to my parents especially. I think that’s odd.
All I know is that I’m having so much fun learning how to code. It’s like a challenging fun. I have mini goals that keep me motivated to figure out new ways to solve each problem. For example, right now I’m working on my side project, and I just can’t figure out how to conVERT A BOOL INTO A STRING AHHH. So frustrating because I’ve been working on it for like…3 hours. BUT I WILL FIGURE IT OUT AND IT WILL FEEL SO FUCKING GOOD.
Anyway, I moved my new roommate into my apartment today! I need to give her a name by the way, holy shit…let’s go with uhh….Emma. I’m not gonna tell you real names HAHAHA. HAH. Regardless, that was the easiest move I’ve ever helped with, ever. All she had were a few bags of clothes and a mattress/boxspring. It took maybe 30 minutes to get everything inside. SO EASY. She’s so nice too. I’m excited to get to know her better :).
Talking to her makes me think a lot. She’s a little younger than I am, and she’s double majoring in engineering. You can definitely tell she’s very smart… and she takes a lot of pride in pushing herself to do her best, especially as a woman in the engineering field. It just makes me remember how all my life it was always my dream to become a veterinarian…how I decided to switch my major to nursing halfway through my freshman year mostly because I didn’t think I could make it to vet school. Looking back at how easily I made it through nursing school, I definitely could’ve done it. It would’ve been very fucking hard, but I definitely could’ve pushed myself through it (well, I’d still be in school now actually, but still). Part of me wonders why I chose not to push myself…and how I’ll be in a fairly challenging (and male-dominated) profession like computer programming…And I wonder if one day I’ll push myself even harder to get my master’s or go into some sort of software engineering position. I wonder if I’m smart enough to do it well – or would even enjoy it at all. I think that’s what makes me so excited. I don’t know what’s next, but I love every second of exploring who I am and what I might become.