I listened to a very interesting podcast at work last night. I really want to talk about it…even though it kinda freaks me out as much as it intrigues me.
I listened to a podcast episode that talks about dating from the perspectives of three
different people in my age group. All three had different perspectives including being mostly uninterested in dating, interested but having poor luck, and being in a long term relationship. One revolving message that kept coming up was this feeling of “of course.” If you’re in a relationship with the person you’re meant to be with, “of course” you’re going to get married. The idea of not being with them would be absolutely ridiculous. I reflected a lot on that with my own relationship with Derek. It’s interesting to me because I’ve felt that feeling of “of course” from extremely early on in our relationship…but I honestly don’t think he’s as…”of course” as I am. I don’t really feel like I’m speaking from a point of insecurity right now. It just seems to be that way since I tend to put more effort into the relationship, planning special dates, I want sex way more, I value communicating every day and having deeper conversations far more than he does. And I’m not really sure what I should do with that information.
I guess the only thing anyone can do is enjoy the relationship for what it is – as long as it’s enjoyable (which I obviously am haha). And see where it does lol. That’s all for now because I need to sleeeeeeeep