July 30, 2018

You don’t realize how much you need a lazy day until you have one. I haven’t had a day where I had absolutely no commitments in a loooooooooooooooong time. And damn it sure felt good.

Well… I did have one commitment. I had pre-work for my coding bootcamp to really dive into. I realized that I only have a couple days off that I can really work on my pre-work, especially now that I’ve decided to go to Chicago with my sister next week. I’ll be fine though! I’m making really good headway. I just have MAJOR ADHD when I’m trying to sit down and watch videos about methods and arrays haha. It’s especially hard to sit down when I want to be out walking in the beautiful weather. I used to be so good at sitting down and focusing on homework, but it seems that my study muscles from nursing school are out of shape.

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Probably not the most effective way to get work done, but between videos and tutorials I ended up doing 3 loads of laundry, grocery shopping, cooking an entire chicken, teaching Schmee how to “stand up” with said chicken, repairing the cat tree in my living room, scrolling endlessly through Facebook (ugh I wish I could delete that app, but it’s not possible on my current phone), chatting with bae, opening a package that I was excitedly waiting on for weeks which ended up being a red sweater that looked absolutely nothing like the picture :(, writing a very frustrated review on said sweater, then writing reviews on my last 15 amazon purchases. Very productive day actually. I also got a lot of pre-work done throughout all of this, so I’m pretty proud :).

Long story short, my lazy day off ended up not actually being so lazy… I don’t think it’s actually possible for me to do nothing all day. However, catching up on all these little things made me feel so organized and re-energized.

Off to sleep! I’m hoping that dealing with all my little chores lets my brain rest. Maybe I can finally get a full 8 hours of sleep.

July 2, 2018

I guess I’ll be writing more about yesterday than today, technically. I had such a great time at Derek’s house :). It’s been probably over six months since I’ve even been there, thanks to his work being so conveniently located near my apartment.

His brother is also going to be in the coding bootcamp that I originally signed up for starting this month, so Derek, he and I were dissecting his prework and working on it on of his projects. I’m not gonna lie, I was a little discouraged by my difficulty understanding a few of the concepts. Derek’s brother seems like a real natural at coding and understanding abstract concepts quickly…and it was really hard not to compare myself to him. Even though it was a little discouraging, it makes me want to work extra hard to really understand programming. I feel like being a girl in a male-dominated industry, I have to work a little harder to prove myself. And it’s going to be much more difficult than starting out in nursing – something that was not especially challenging for me. I’m definitely willing to put in the effort, though. And I think I’m going to reap the rewards and satisfaction when I’m done :).

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June 25, 2018

Why is it that I talk about my nursing job all the time with my family? When I’m not around them, I rarely mention it – and when I do I have nothing good to say about it? It’s like I remember all the little details and stories about my job when I’m talking to my parents especially. I think that’s odd.

All I know is that I’m having so much fun learning how to code. It’s like a challenging fun. I have mini goals that keep me motivated to figure out new ways to solve each problem. For example, right now I’m working on my side project, and I just can’t figure out how to conVERT A BOOL INTO A STRING AHHH. So frustrating because I’ve been working on it for like…3 hours. BUT I WILL FIGURE IT OUT AND IT WILL FEEL SO FUCKING GOOD.

Anyway, I moved my new roommate into my apartment today! I need to give her a name by the way, holy shit…let’s go with uhh….Emma. I’m not gonna tell you real names HAHAHA. HAH. Regardless, that was the easiest move I’ve ever helped with, ever. All she had were a few bags of clothes and a mattress/boxspring. It took maybe 30 minutes to get everything inside. SO EASY. She’s so nice too. I’m excited to get to know her better :).

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Talking to her makes me think a lot. She’s a little younger than I am, and she’s double majoring in engineering. You can definitely tell she’s very smart… and she takes a lot of pride in pushing herself to do her best, especially as a woman in the engineering field. It just makes me remember how all my life it was always my dream to become a veterinarian…how I decided to switch my major to nursing halfway through my freshman year mostly because I didn’t think I could make it to vet school. Looking back at how easily I made it through nursing school, I definitely could’ve done it. It would’ve been very fucking hard, but I definitely could’ve pushed myself through it (well, I’d still be in school now actually, but still). Part of me wonders why I chose not to push myself…and how I’ll be in a fairly challenging (and male-dominated) profession like computer programming…And I wonder if one day I’ll push myself even harder to get my master’s or go into some sort of software engineering position. I wonder if I’m smart enough to do it well – or would even enjoy it at all. I think that’s what makes me so excited. I don’t know what’s next, but I love every second of exploring who I am and what I might become.

June 17, 2018

IT’S OFFICIAL AHHHHHHHHH. I put down the deposit for the coding program like 3.5 minutes ago. SO EXCITED. SO SCARED. I’d like to mention that this is going to start in freakin’ JULY by the way. Originally I was aiming for the October classes, but I’m (almost) guaranteed a job with the company I really want to work for if I start now (thanks to the company’s partnership with this particular program, if anyone cares haha). This is it, people.

The perfect way to end a really nice Father’s day with my dad. I definitely did not tell him about the news. I dropped little hint-hints here and there that I’m interested in computer programming. I don’t want it to be a complete surprise, but I’m really not looking forward to the “I’ve switched out of the career with that degree you paid for” conversation. But we spent the evening at the mall since it was too insanely hot to walk outside, racking up the steps on our fitbits and entering absolutely none of the stores haha. Then we ate some dutch apple pie and ice cream that I brought him because he’s diabetic, and I’m a future diabetic so we love that shit. 7